Good afternoon world... Its a hot, sunny saturday and I just got back from my cousin's wedding... The ceremony was small but nice. Actually, I don't really like to go to weddings cos they remind me of what might have been... But I was doing a favour for my uncle. Had to video the whole thing so that they can NOT watch it for the rest of their married lives... lol.

This morning when I woke up I was feeling kinda lousy... The same lousy feeling that I get every morning when I realise that I've only been dreaming... :p Anyway, I wanted to go wash up but I was so tired and feeling so lousy that when I got into my bathroom, I sat down on the toilet and started praying.

"Dear God, You know my heart and my desires. You know what I want and what I need... If what I want is not in line with what you want for me, Lord, you help me deal with it. Lord, all I ask now is that you take care of her. You show her the way she needs to go. You teach her what she needs to know. Because no one else can. Amen."

That was my prayer in the bathroom. It wasn't as quick as that though... There were so many thoughts rushing through my mind. You might ask, "I thought you've already let go?"
Excuse me... If it was so easy, I would have done it. Letting go is not a one time thing... Its something I have to do everyday...